Change reliGion,Religion Change

Dave Leake

 




A First Writing

One month ago

On this date

You came into my life

Though I thought you too late

But then I saw your

True desire

That was when

I felt your fire

Who knowa, how much higher

You and I can build this fire?

 

A Great Dream

Sleep is a great gift

Where people can go

To visit history

Visit the present

Visit the future

Maybe I will see

The future tonight

But tomorrow forget

Maybe I will see

What is happening

Right as I sleep…

But not know I did so

Maybe I will see yesterday

But remember it!

Perhaps I won’t

 

Sleep is a gift

Given to beings

For a taste of what

It would be like

To be free from life

It gives us a glimpse

Of what it would be like

To dream forever

 

A Keeper Of Time

With this timepiece

Keep the time

The time I’m gone

Till the time I’ll be home

It may seem long

But really it’s not

Just think of the times:

The times we’ve had

They were so great

They can never be replaced

The times we WILL have

They will be fun

To me you are the sun

Look at this watch

And think of me

And the Love I give

That always will be (What are you gonna do with?)

 

Action In The Sky

Action in the sky

Action in the sky

Seeing a guy

            Killing a kid

Don’t know what he did

Wrong

C’mon down

            And all around

Let’s see the death

            Take place

 

Red Sky

Red Sky

Red Sky night

A child’s first fright

 

Red Sky

Red Sky

Red Sky Morn

Child’s Forlorn

All By Myself

Well I’m a way out here

All by myself

WAY out here all by myself

I can do what I wanna do

I can see what I wanna see

I can be who I wanna be

I can FUCK who I wanna fuck

An I can kill what I wanna kill

I’VE GOT POWER

But I ain’t gonna use it

I’VE GOT POWER

But I ain’t gonna abuse it

To use.. is to… abuse

To use... is to… abuse

An I ain’t gonna do it

No more.

 

Well I’m a way out here

All by myself

I’m a following this here trail

Doing what it does

Seeing what it sees

Fucking what it fucks

An killing what it kills

I might get lost.

Yeah, might low my way

But that’ll be the day

When the Birds of Prey

Swing by my way

That’ll be the day

When I become

No more

 


An Alien I Met

I was walking slowly down the fence

When we met by secret coincidence

Skipped a class,

On the ground you sat

I was a pauper

            Out looking for mint

Society to you

            Was foreign

A fledgling in life you were

Then I took you under my wing

Showed you round the town

            Witnessed all new things

What did you think?

We’re so different

            We are the same?

 

Summertime sun had gone and left us

            Autumn’s colored tokens had brought the old bus

Winter winds on your face

            Soon will be

Keeping the warmth

            Your skin touching me

The change of the season

            Is nothing

Compared to our scene

But to you, what does it mean?

We’re so different

            We are the same?

 


Aristocrat

You sit back, kick back

Iron your legal notes

Make sure there are no wrinkles

Make sure they’re crisp and flat

You rich Aristocratic Bitch

Take a handful of your coin

Buff it up and make it shine

Now you’re feeling really fine

Let it run thru your fingers

See it fall and hear it ding

Go out and buy a new ring

You rich Aristocratic Bitch.

 

Being Truthful

Life is nothing

But a Memory

Waiting to die

Once death becomes us

What is left

Life is only

What we remember

We create it

As we live it

Try to do things

That we will remember as good

Thinking it will make life better

We can only try

As we cannot make the future

We can only make

A suggestion to it:

The future is really

Nothing but people

Trying to make

The memory good


Book Of Life

Our lives are but a book

In an unending library

I am now closing

A chapter of my life

But at the same time

Starting a new one

There are, in the norm

Many chapters to ones life

But once they are closed

They cannot be re-opened

No one knows

What new ones will bring

Whether good or bad

These chapters will keep

Opening and closing

Some you may want open

Longer than others

            But they must always be closed

Others you may want shut

As soon as you open them

            Yet they must happen…

What is making these happen

May BE what is reading our books

Each day we start,

We add a page

To our own chapter

Add a chapter

To our own book

We are nothing (yet must be something)

When put in with all the others

Yet to come, or already are

In the library of

Our so-called books

As I am finishing

This page, This chapter

Maybe I will be

Finishing my book

Which I must do;

Maybe THIS IS the

Last page, Last chapter

In the book of my life

 

Brother

Brother, why did it happen?

Didn’t you know we all loved you

Didn’t you care how we felt?

I remember my introduction

To Music

I remember my first Kiss

I still see the artifact Idol

In my visions, It’ll be you I miss

You brought death upon yourself

Years now past

Rigor Mortis is now reality

First your image, in my eyes

Then your body, the world sees dies

If not now, it will be soon

When it happens, I’ll remorse by moon

See my dark shadow, Ominous Ambience

See my dark Shadow, Feel your presence

Eyes bluest blue, Not of Crimson

I’m glad it’s over, Out of your prison

Was it so bad, you didn’t notice?

The people around, thought you in bliss

Picture you by my side

In my younger years

In your contented time

You were my Idol

I was your follower

NOW NO MORE

BullShit

The time has come

Look what you’ve done

What you’ve not done

What you’re going to do

You must decide

Sometimes what you want

You may not have

But if you want it

And you try hard enough

It will.

Change Religion,Religion Change

No more than one year ago

On this weekend

My life was changed;

Since then things have changed:
Months, days, dates, classes

Death

I have seen what it was like

To have something I loved

But things have inevitably changed

 

No one can stop change

But change cannot stop anyone

From visiting the past

Each has his own past

That cannot be changed

To some this past

Can be a church of their own

In which no one else can worship

To others, the past is a

Dreary Hell that cannot be forgotten

Still things continue to change

 

Where new religions can

And will be formed

Some will be attended to for a lifetime

Others only a moment

Out of the inconceivable

Amount of time there really is:

That is why there will ALWAYS be change

 

You have helped be form my first religion

You have helped me

Build my first church

Even though I will switch

To different churches

And find new religions

I will always be part

Of the religion to which

I was first introduced

 

No matter how long

One has been with a church

No matter how secure

One feels with what one has

And may tell himself that

There is no more change

That could possibly be made

There is still, ultimately

One more change

Left to be made

 

Come

The debutante enters a strange room for the first time

A newcomer, he thinks to himself

She’s never done anything like this before

He wonders how she’ll react

            He grabs her Hair

                  Hair is in his hands

 

She shivers up and down coldly

Acknowledging the distant warmth

They kiss…

            Will she miss

What she’s held for years?

NO! Not once it’s over.

It happens.

She feels oddly betrayed by years of

Superstitious expectations

It’s over. IT’S OVER!!

All this talk for something so… trivial

 

She is yet another who does not understand

What it means to

            Come with me

And I’ll show you what it’s like to

            Come with me

And you’ll be just fine

            Come on out and play

Night or day, I know you’ll want to

            Come with me once you do.


CONTROL

The young man stood

Holding the coffin of

The Tragic One

Upon hearing the Sermon obsequy

The Pallbearer has the urge to laugh

It is hard to control

The vocals

But he does manage…

Ready, Aim, Fire

BANG

Ready, Aim, Fire

BANG

Ready, Aim, Fire

BANG

 

The tears are literally Jerked

From the Assemblage

The young Pallbearer, Virgin to this sight

Now feels sorrow

Has the urge to cry

It is hard to control

The Vocals

But he did manage

 

Lament for this Soul

Laugh for this Soul

Would be no difference

If there was no control

I see this now

I go back and think ahead

To my next

Where there will be

No Control

            At my next, I will not cry

Burst with laughter

Not for the die

I only cry for Love

Ha,

            Ha,

                        Ha,

                                  Ha,

                                              Ha

 

Creator?

So ridiculous if you look at it in the most common of ways

Church-goers go to church-do the right thing

I ask them why.

To go to the heavens, they spend their existence

Trying to do the “right” thing

A flash in the universe

Nothing more that a speck in the universe

As if this little speck is actually going to determine

The rest of Eternity for our Soul

They say I’m heading for the worse

Oh fuck, I forgot my book of Verse

 

What did people do before Christ?

Looked toward the “MESSIAH”

They believe every person was either a fortune teller

Future seer or idiot for believing

Who, in their right mind, would believe

Some unspeakably HOLY essence would just appear out of nowhere?

I don’t know

I just don’t know what to believe

How do you look at life?

 


Dear Dr. Kevorkian,

I have this problem

You can relate, From what I’ve heard

This problem it’s called life, I think it’s absurd

New things come by my way

Frustrations build DAY BY DAY

People, Problems, Jobs, & Drama

Blah, blah, blah, etcetera, etcetera

 

I wonder how to end it, I wish it all no more

I guess it doesn’t matter, Since death’s a whore

He will do anybody in, Just how to begin?

Should I pull a trigger

            And kill a few niggas?

My throat maybe I’ll cut

            Or fuck some slut

The highest Bridge I’ve seen

            Maybe I’ll jump into a Ravine

 

No, No, NO, NO, NO, NO!!!

These ways are too hard

Too big a problem

I want the easy way without a doubt

            I demand the easy way out

Your way is painless, I won’t see a face

Will you take my case?

 


Discriminating Pub

Walk into a discriminating Pub

The girls, flaunting, flirting, fucking

To get their grub

I think of you: Innocence & Purity

In a place like this, Never will I see

On the TV is an unknown game

In my head I say your name

Comforting my head

The sound of your name

Sip my drink, remember and think

Of the times we had

So far away, in the past- it’s sad

 

The day is dismal, Dreary w/o you by my side

My feelings beneath, I try to hide

I’m waiting here for my friend

Maybe here until the end

Of my tour

It has been long

I’ve made it, you kept me strong

Forever in debt to you

So much I owe to you

I remember, try to repay you

 


Enigmatic Persona

Taken away I was

From your enigmatic persona

Raped Of more knowledge

About you!

My freedom to see you whenever

You desired

Arbitrarily taken from me

Taken was your touch

Gone was your warmth

Never known except

A short kiss

The memory of you has been

Robbed from me

The existence of us is Extinct

Extinct is your Love

Never a chance to exist

Fear not!

I will avenge

            This Heist

I will make my way back

I will be on a militant odyssey

 


Fill Me Up

Fill me up with disease

Cuz of you

My shirt needs washed

Cuz of you

True, but I don’t regret

I’m not dying,

            Not Trying

                        Not Lying

To you about me

 

Newland not uncommon to you

Origination is our common flu

Reality is it I dream

Or is Reality a dream

Which to you does it seem?

A response I want to elicit

Good or bad-make it explicit

If you dare,

One way or the Other

I don’t care!

                                                                                                                                               


First Since My First

I was just a thinking

Thinking about the other night

I wonder why, why did you cry?

What did I do

To make you feel so blue?
The last thing I wanted to do

You say it’s not just me

It’s this place that makes

You feel this way

Music to my ears

I’ll be the one to brighten your day

 

I miss holding your hand

Wish we could’ve walked the Sands

Together, you and I

So far from me now

I think about, wanna see you wonder how

You are the first one since my first

That I’ve loved, it was the worst

This I now realize

Because of your eyes

Pure, Truthful, Beautifully relentless

This they are

            In my eyes

For mine are used to

Questioning

Which you answer

Wondering

Which you tell

Lusting

Which you fulfill

Wanting

Which you give

Seeing nothing for so long

You are a sight for my eyes

A sight my eyes need to see


First Time

As the funeral progression

Passed by…

One of them noticed

MY presence

I felt accepted

I continued to watch

(As I stood in the mud)

Of the likeness

A cow chewing it’s cud

I then Awoke

Lay there sweating

A moth fluttering toward the light

A new world record

I thought of setting

She was there too

In the dirt, scum and filth

OF SIN

She felt guilty, Still

Warm from pleasure within

I was alert

Thinking to my thoughts

Another’s virginity

That I’d tossed.

 

Fools Rush In

I sit here and think

The headlights come on

I see the newfound wonder

YOU went out w/ ME

And I wonder why.

Hear the tones reflect in the sky

Call, people rejoice

And I wonder why

I am not a part of it

I look and stand off to the side

And wonder about all the shit

My Love and what you’ll do with it

Kick me off and take it for granted?

Take me aside. Show me how it’s

Done

It’s all your doing

When I see you: Head rush

I am stoned, do you dig me

Or will I roam

Like I have; Like I will

I see you; Like we kill

I wish no more

No more of the shit

My Love and what you’ll do with it

 

Will I be famous?

Will I be known?

My morality- for you I disown

Can you understand

In you natural beauty stands

I see the mountains

You fit right in

My feelings for real

Are held within

I refuse to be hurt

Like I was before

You were too,                                                                                                                         

            I realize the score

I think we’re even- on the same side

We know what’s out there- far and wide

Will you come with me?only you can know

I want you to go

I see people walking

            Hear people talking

                        It’s you’re Love I stalking

It is the first time since my first

It was my first time, it was the worst

I hope you’ll change that

See you there, see you here

            See you everywhere

My Love is outlawed

Only outlaw take laws

Would you become an outlaw for me?

 


Guest

I’m learning to live this life

I’m forgetting my past

But after it’s done

What have YOU won?

I have nothing

But a gun

What to do with

But to kill at will

It’s not what I want

It’s all I’ve got

The barrel’s hot

Because today I killed

The silhouette floated

Reason being: it’s bloated

Because it’d boasted

It was insane

But can’t be now

Now it boasts of Death

I can smell non-living breath

I now brag of insanity

When will it be?

What death will I see,

Once I’m freed?

Death is the ultimate guess

Death is our ultimate guest

Welcome it, get close to it

Relish it, become it

Welcome it with trial

Get close with excess

Relish it for its finality

Become it for reality

 


Give Me My Direction

Which direction could you go?
Which direction should you go?

Which direction would YOU go?

North is suspected good

West may be sad

East looks far

South is feared bad

There might only be two:
Up or Down

Up is good

Down is bad

Which one will you choose?

Has it been chosen by you?
Or has it been chosen for you?

Why is it?

When is it?

Where is it?

What is it?

Which is it?

Flip your coin

Head or Tails?
Is it Luck?

FUCK!

 


Grandparents

Grandparents are indeed so grand

Belonging together, so easy to see

But what a fool I’d be, to explain collectively

 

What is a Grandpa?
the best mother’s dad

A man who has fought

Long and hard

His way through life

To become a family star

He is the familiar patriot

We all know and see

Respect, Admiration, Envy

Is present, throughout the community

If there is someone who is right

And (almost) never, sometimes wrong

Who has a will, personality

Perpetual, unmoving and strong

A Grandfather is all of the above

The person in our lives

We all can trust and Love

What is a Grandma?

Should someone ask, I’d have to reply

With a certain gleam in my eye

A great mother’s mom

An example to follow

Someone to love

In times of sorrow

She is a woman, A woman of kind

Warm, friendly and loving

A woman of sort hard to find

A person who knows beauty and ardor

A limitless, timeless, Azure Sea

Sharing experience and joy with me

My feelings, hard to express

Someone like her it is

A hope of mine to impress

A grandmother is this and more

Everything, of course, that is fine

If she is anything like

The grandmother who is mine

Greatest Person I Ever Met

You are the greatest person

I’ve ever met today

Have you ever seen a baby pigeon?

Have you ever seen a baby fly?

Athlete’s foot fungus is a fly’s feast

Disgusting it is to say the least

 

Some people call me a weirdo

Some say I’m far out

I ignore all the labels

And continue to be myself

Whether alone or surrounded by people

I AM ALWAYS MYSELF

Is this not important?

Never sacrifice morals or beliefs

To please someone other than yourself

For in the end it would be in vain

And result in you’re having pain

I promise this to you

What I say is true

For I have lived and learned

I speak with experience

Risk: This is what makes

            life worth living and interesting

Not the certainties

Life is an adventure-

Or it’s nothing at all


Have A Nice Trip

Hey. Come here…

What’s that?

Put it in your mouth

There’s no taste

Don’t make hast

In a little while

You’ll have a new style

Clear this perception

See things a different way:

Your OWN.

 

WOW, this is cool

I’m no where, but

I’m right HERE

I’m in an Abyss

With you experiencing nothing but Bliss

How can this be?

What a new founding!

My heart is strong and pounding

 

What have you done??

I Love you, you’re the only one

I wanna die for you

I’m jumping…

What’s this?

I’m not falling

Oh, I see I’m on a rope

No it’s a snake

HA, Ha, Ha, this is Cake.

 

What happened to you?

Haven’t seen you for a while

You’re sure different

Oh, pardon me, I mistook you

For someone I knew

Hold on, I’ve NEVER met

 

Put this in your mouth

Breathe in, Hold it, H-O-LD it

What was that?

Helium? Formaldehyde? Nitrous Oxide?

 

Cool man, ECHOES, echoes, echoes

Look at those flowers

No that’s weed

Oh well, looks pretty to me

Beauty is in the eye of

The beholder

Where’s your Granpappy, huh?

Been bad, what’d he do?

Tried to get a little cash

For me and you

He’s gone now for what

He’s done

Left me to carry on

Look what I’VE done

Fucked up, and met you

 

Hot, Muggy, Night

Hot, Muggy, Night

Strong; Overwhelming

I wan to Fuck you

            In it’s thickness

Streetlights glowing

            Cars sparsely flowing

            Down

            Down

            Down

The drain Maze

            Of streets

Belong to the Earth

I need to use my Girth

And it is ribbed

            For her pleasure

 


I Want To Be With You

When I sit here

All by myself

So far from

The place I call home…

I think about what

You might be doing

And I want to be there

I wanna be with you

When you see

When you look

Do you want to be with me?

I wanna be with you

When you fly

Wanna see the curiosity

In your eye;

I wanna be with you

In the Ocean

Wanna taste… the salt…

On your face

I want to touch you

Make you shiver

I want to feel you

Don’t make me wither

This is who?
I wanna be with you

Make you move;

You’re the one

I want to be with

When I sit here

All by myself

So far from

The place I call home

I think about what

You might be doing;

I smile

And quietly shed a tear

I wish I could be there

 

Imprisonment (Pismo Beach)

Here is the Sand

Upon which I’ve tread

In a new land

Emptiness w/o you beside my head

Here is the fluid

In which I’ve swum

My feelings kept well hid

Thinking of you… I am

These two things I’ve imprisoned

Within a glass, for you to keep

But should you walk these

With your own 2 feet, w/o me

Release these

Let them free

Do it

And remember me

 

In Memory Of Me

In Memory of me

Don't forget my arrival

Don't forget my arch-rival

Don't forget the time we spent

Don't forget the letters I sent

Don't forget the gifts I gave

Don't forget who was your slave

Don't forget who would've died

Don't forget who should've cried

Don't forget who you fuck

Don't forget it isn't luck

Don't forget to give me your love

Don't forget it's me you shove

Don't forget to be controlled

Don't forget you're getting old

Don't forget your music

Don't forget you might get sick

Don't forget to increase your health

Don't forget evil is wealth

Don’t forget your MTV

Don't forget to remember me

Don't forget me please

Index

A shot in the day

Can have memory of Play

A shot in the dark

May bring journey to embark

Touch the button

Squeeze the trigger

Either way, it’s a shot

That’ been made

Once touched

You are caught

The moment frozen forever

For others to see

Once squeezed

What’s struck is hit

Once great, is now down

For others to see

They can’t be undone

So true to life

So great and threatening

Impossible to control

Others’ actions you

Can’t foresee

One thing’s always left

It’s a drawing of the three


Jungle

You say you Love me

But how can I know?

It’s said Love is blind

Maybe it’s so

You say you need me

I think it’s a lie

When I look at you

It’s disgust I feel inside

I tell you thing

I want to be real

But for the most

It’s not what I feel

I know you can sense this

But you don’t care

You abuse my kiss

Your Love is edible

But it’s not palatable

To me, anymore

Our Love was Sacred

In this Jungle of Eden

Tell me it’s so

That’s all I wanna know.

 


Journey

Going across the border

To find a righteous time

Along the way the path comes

To a set of fresh bones

Outta the closet, ON the ground

Gotta be quiet, make no sound

What you gonna do?

I construe they gonna blame you

I’ll see you later,

I’m going home

Where my friends are gathered

They await my return

But it’s the town I wish to burn

When I go back

Whoever I see

They recall and ask:

            Remember me?

I respond jovially, what’s your name?

As quick as she came, is now gone

Proven, once again, it’s life’s little game

I continue down the hall of doors

Opening, guys and whores

            Societies beds fucking

Breeders of Death

There is no thrill when

            All you can do is kill

 


Labyrinth Of Streets

Looking at the streets, Labyrinth of Streets

Cars are the blood of dawn’s highway

The arteries of Life, Creating the Breeze

They map to you providing a way

Twisting this way and that

To you it will lead, The Road

Turns this way and that

 

I went out on the street today

Went out into the world

Trying to find something new

A different place

I wanna get a whole new face

Life is a Journey

Long or Short is unknown

How you travel is a style your own

 

I come home to you

From Far away, I see your face

In my Life, It’s in place

I hold you in my arms

Your skin against mine, Like Silk

You are the breast of which I milk

In your presence, My love is strong

It is a cou d’ tat all night long

Done in secrecy in the twilight

Wanton, I’ll see YOU tonight

 

 


Man Of Black

When I was in the school of Death

I was in a procession behind

            A man of Black

Having done and ominous Action

            Lame he was

I thought of moving

To the back of the line

            To be unburdened by possible

Inquiry for help

I quickly abandoned the thought

            Proactively offered my assistance

In a tongue not of my own

            He offered his thanks

I was glad to not have worn

            The Straight white-laces

For this is not me

Marksman

You’re a marksman, babe

Your missiles’ true and sharp

For you’ve shot Eros’ Arrow

Thru my Heart

But I feel it now

I’m not Alone

Not the only one

To stand your throne

A throne of Power

I Hate it; Despise it

You Live it

You Like it

You Love it

Thru your blindness

Thru your stupidity

You’ve made me nothing

A land w/o feeling

A world w/o Love

This is how I live

This is where I dwell

For you hold a throne, like Satan

And I live in what some would call Hell

 

Moment Left Unturned

I hear her talk

I see the walk

I see her in the sun

Could she… be the ONE?

Her hair is going

My adrenalin’s flowing

The legs are pumping

Her arms a swinging

She looks my way

He eyes mythically beautiful

What can you do?

I was entranced

By that gaze

My feelings a fiery Blaze

She smiles…

I’m down on my knees

 

It’s over that fast

Another moment in life

Left unturned

Another unanswered question

Would she? COULD she?

Carpe diem was not seized

Don’t bother to think it

It’s now too late

 


Mountains On The Horizon

Mountains on the horizon

Past that, Desert’s risin

Hot summer day

The first of it’s kind

I lay naked

On the ground to unwind

Health tan covers my hide

Thru the bush

I look to the valley

Birds sing as if in Rally

A young doe stops, looks at me

Eyes alert, full of curiosity

WAIT! what’s this I hear?

To the east, civilization draws near

Let me release what I fear

My Love

You and me, we’re the same

We like to fly

Above the clouds, Insanely high;

I can’t Love you, though I try

I don’t wanna see you cry

I’d rather die

You and me, we have ONE life

One life to live

One life to give

We have one Soul

One Soul to make

One Soul to take

We’re like the Ancient tree

Wishing to be free

But have roots

Deep in ground;

Like our heart

Embedded in flesh

Without it, we’d have death

SILENCE… I hear the rain

I feel it, something’s bee slain

Don’t worry it’s just a game

Be strong, and take the pain

When I hear your voice

If I touch your skin

It’s as if we were toys

It makes me shiver within

Something outside

Outside knowing hate,

I’ll now confide

It’s coming through the gate

Don’t run, babe, can’t you tell?
It’s no use, we’re in Hell

 

 

Haven’t you realized

Your never-ending cry?
For YOU have the sorrow in your eyes

Knowing now that you must Die;

I’ve seen ya in my thoughts

I’ve witnessed in my dreams

Dressed in Black

Blood all around, flowing in streams

Can you feel my reign

My soul’s something you’re fulfilling

You pulse through my veins

Are you willing

You speak my tongue

Though not by mouth

It’s you I’ve chose to come

Not North, we’ll be going South

You’ll be under my spell

Could be your heaven

Could be your Hell

We’ll be at war with one another

Yet one with each other

My Love

Is it your Hate?
My Love

It’s your Hate

My Love

It’s your Hate

It’s RAPE

 

My Picture Of You Fades

My picture of you fades more

Day by day

The memory of you grows more

Vague, week to week

The remembrance of us is just about

Gone

But I still recall that

            I Love you

And I still remember that

            I Feel for you

I know I’m supposed to miss you

            And I do

All this is true

I remember that I had never lied

I remember that you never tried

But I still do

I know it’ll never be the same

I know I’ll never forget your name

And I won’t

So much of you I’ll know and miss

I think and recall it was you I kissed

But now all we have between us is

Distance and Time

And it’s only getting Longer

I’ve seen the length

I’ve heard the chime

I think it’s time to

Move on.

 


Nervous Fear

My nervous fear, I will anxiously show

When you come over and I watch you go

My feelings are the carpet on which you walk

You are the family that I know

The kind of relatives that I stalk

 

I jeopardized my Ambivalent success

I risked my Paternal Pride

When they asked me

            “Who came along for the ride”

I’m glad I didn’t get nailed

I want my life to mean more than nothing

Nerves Of  Steel

The other day I bought this new car

Some would call it “Bitchin”

It is the swiftest I ever did fly

“C’mon along

            Wanna go for a ride?”

Though it could be poisonous to life

We’ll take it as it comes though

 

Don’t worry Babe,

            I got cat-like reflexes

                        And NERVES OF STEEL

 

The headlines read:

“Two injured in a wreck near…”

What town was it?

The village of my birth, No, NO

The town of my lover’s soiling?
I just don’t know!

The two injured were on what

            Some would call “Rocket”

Companions of mine

Though one more than the other (who was fond of my twin)

 

There was an unidentified

            Masked-Bandit Evil Doer

Don’t worry Babe,

            I got cat-like reflexes

                        And NERVES OF STEEL

Most don’t in the end, you see

Nobody was killed; only mildly hurt

The masked-bandit evil-doer: was me

Rode off into the sunset as usual

Blind to what had really happened

 

The pass was close on a hill

“Hey, babe, chill out. Ain’t no big thing.”

Cause if you got cat-like reflexes

            And NERVES OF STEEL

                        It ain’t no big deal.

You’ll do just fine. Let’s go get some wine.

Oh, look at the time, Where are they?

The must’ve Wrecked. Ha. Ha.

We laugh now, but in a little while

We’ll have to keep a little quiet

 

C’mon, let’s go for a ride

Will you be my bride?

Let’s get married to extinction

And our priest will be Death himself

 


Our Cage

Look what we’ve done

To our cage

Stripped and polluted

And stripped it down

W/ our green eyes

To the ground

I see a very subtle clue

Bout what to do

Got to take our mother

By the hand

An pull her outta

Mankind’s quicksand

Take her by the arm

Show the way

From the harm

 

We’ve gotta stop

Gotta drop An killa cop

Stop the bribes and the scams

Cleanse the soil and plant the yams

Prime ourselves for the morning star

To vanquish the midnight spar

Sit back, relish the sun

The new day hath come


Our Tree Has Fallen

It was so high

After all the winds

After all the storms

How could this have happened?

It was a symbol

But is now a burden

It has become a new symbol

Once something is destroyed

That was so great

It cannot be replaced

It is gone

You may replace it with another

But it will always be known

As the new tree

The old is nothing but a memory

After it is changed

Look at what is left

Look at what it is like

To have what is no more

Look at the rings

Or maybe the years

Think of the rings

When you were around

By chance it was

Struck down so abruptly

It may have woke A dead

It has been downed

Never to face high winds

Never to stand against storms

Again

 


Past Skin Bare

In the past, I used to know

That when the cold came

I would soon see the warmth

Of my family and what I have

Always known

 

Today, I realized this is no more

Once the cold has come

It will stay cold throughout

Only until the change of the season

Will it be warm again

I miss my family already

Though I write with the out of doors

            Touching my skin bare                                                                                               

People Are Like TV Sets

I don’t wanna see you in my mirror anymore

It may appear to be in disorder

            Bring knowledge to your horror

People are like TV sets

            And I want to turn most of them off

The reason of life is death

Wanna come off this trip called life

It sucks there is life to feed

Death the whore

 

I am a freelance builder of dreams

A mercenary sent to fulfill your needs

This girl that loves me in her bed

Condoms-N-Candy wrappers about my head

If it were my feelings you’d explore

What you’ve find is it’s you I deplore

You’ll either be proud to have known

Or sickened by my acquaintance

I don’t need to tell you, you know it

You’d inspire the mind of a poet

Life-EVERyday is nothing more than

A Hair trigger waiting to be touched

I miss you in my embrace

You’re face, not in it’s place: My view

People Tank

Look at the fish

In the fish tank

AAAWWW poor little fish

Entrapped

 

Are we not people

In a people tank?

AAAWWW poor little people

Entrapped

 

Caged in our vital ambient gases

w/o which there is no life

Just as the fish will blindly

Unknowingly use all the oxygen

So do people Use and Abuse

All they can; All they will

Because of this we will kill

Ourselves

 

Like bacteria in a Petri dish

Eating, fucking, breeding

Dying in the end

The earth is a Human Petri Dish

 

Prison Bound

I’m prison bound, on my way

To Jail, night and day

That’s what I get for

Walking the tight rope

Between Good and Evil

I chose to steal; Picked the wrong

Bad is the name of my song

Day after day,

I face Frozen reality

When will I THAW?

Sick of Being hard,

I wanna be soft

 

Realization

Don’t even say high god damn it

What’s she want me to do?

Kiss her goodnight?

It’s too late

I must get up

Sorry about that, I’m off

Try on Sunday, I’ll be up

I go to church

Which I’ll shed, like a birch

On a moment w/o you

I don’t care you’re too far

You mustn’t go, I’ve called

A ring so beautiful

Put to waste

A woman of show

Why was I stupid

Thought I knew Love

She was concerned w/ herself

The person I loved is gone

Now and mature

What I knew was nothing

And immature

The one I once loved

The one-eyed dice Love

Is gone now cause of remoteness

It was not true

 

 


Reasons Of Love

Like the stars at night Your eyes are so Bright

And full of cheer

Throughout the year;

As if it were water

Flowing down a hill

Your hair entices

It’s some kind of thrill

Your skin, so soft

Warm and glowing

When I touch

I am Lost;

As gentle as the Dawn

Your hands, Never shoving

Are ever-loving;

Red and sweet

Like a rose

Are your lips

I wish to Kiss

All this is true

I feel this way

Because I Love you

Sweeter than Candy

Prettier than Flowers-

This is my way to say

Happy Valentines Day

 


Reasons To Live

The rain pours down

Day after day

No the sun never comes this way

When you’re not near

Music I can’t hear

W/o your voice to my ear

These things I can’t explain

I don’t even care because of the pain

It hurts, Deep inside knowing

The oceans keep us apart, far and wide

Reason to live hurt deep inside

Reason to live is to learn

Reason to live is to like

Reason to live is to Love

Reason to live is to Hate

Reason to live is to want

Reason to live is to Deny

Reason to live is to Lie

Reason to live is to steal

Reason to live is to deal

Reason to live is to strive

Reason to live is to connive

The reason we live

            Is to fucking die

 


Religion Intends A Prayer

Going home tomorrow

Off to the unknown

Then back again

Into what I’ve known

I mark my thoughts; inscribed

Wanna see my friends…

Instead I see Christ Crucified

With eyeballs looking

Wanton, Willful

Lust

          Is

                  In

                        His

                              Eyes

 

I try to go back;

Wanna go back, experience the past

All that is happening now

I wish NO MORE!

I see you, need you to

Experience more with me

Just start to stop the stupid Sapience

Religion intends a Prayer

But enacts a command

 

I gotta remember you and

Go along with the flow

See you, remember you,

Go with the flow

I see you

          I want you

                  I remember you

FUCK the flow: See me!

Please See Me.

If you don’t, I will forget

You must see me this time around

This fly around time

Did you recommend

          The Fragrance of Death?

There is life only to feed Death

Lament for those who have not heard

Or been within earshot

Of this fabled premonition

For that is all it is.

 

I will embrace Death

Until it lets me Live

Are we not dead

          Hoping not to Live?

Why is the sky; HIGH?

I will see Azrael

          Before he spies me

And He will be the one

          Who is going to LIVE

 

Respect The Elder

What winds have through your hair went

They were times indeed well spent

The lands upon which you’ve tread

The joy and feelings that you spread

We know, respect you and appreciate

Our lives from yours, hope not deviate

This cannot be told, cannot be sold

It can only be lived day to day

Strong and Bold

WE can only wonder

What the future holds

For the siblings of our birth era


Rough Draft

Stranded in an Oasis of Affection

Unable to feel w/ anyone after you

Cause you’re so fucking REAL

You threaten to take yourself

But always comeback

I take myself

But wish to stay

Why is it this way?

The triangle

 

I want you to come

You continue to do what you’ve known

And you can, it’s my Love you own

You keep it locked away

In a depthless vault w/ so many others

Your beauty, sensuality, personality

Keeps it there

I wonder if you CAN Love

Now I escape, Break free

Especially when you question me

I hat to fucking love you

I’d Love to Hate you

I am powerless in your presence

Your Aura engulfs me

Your beauty surrounds me

Heathen I am

Declared with all the might

I have made again a dismal sight

 


Rough Draft Translation

Powerless in an Oasis of Affection

I feel your sensuality

Engulfed by your Aura

I know your personality

Unable to do anything

But Accept

Heathen I was,

Until you I met

I am a pendant of Love

A jewel, precious and Alike

Zeal to you I hope to Strike

Your Arms are Nirvana

Your Eyes a paradise

Your beauty surrounds me

I cannot see anyone

I cannot think anything

I am nothing

But yours

 

Sensation Of The Hunt

Sensation of the hunt

Excitement of the Kill

Makes me wanna go out and find

Some new kind of Thrill

 

We broke up just the other day

Can’t help but to think of

The next time I’ll get laid

If not soon, when I get paid

You can say we’re just friends

But in the end

You’ll wish we were lovers

Especially when you see all the others


Sign On The Dotted Line

I’ve signed.

In blood w/o knowing

I cannot speak.

Because I’ve signed.

I cannot move about freely

I am separated

From my fellow man

My boundaries set Arbitrarily

Because I’ve signed.

The gates of Paradise are closed to me

I am not allowed to take my clothes off

My body itself, of which I am made, is Taboo

We are ashamed of what is most beautiful

We are afraid of what is most beautiful

We cannot act naturally toward one another

The culture represses Love

I am outside the gates of Paradise

Because of my name

On the dotted line.

 


Temporary Life

I want to make a difference tonight

In my temporary life

I want to have people know

I wan my life to mean more than nothing

I want to leave this place and go

See the Blue Lake water slowly flow

Wanna miss my new girl

God those fucking eyes; Glistening Pearls

It’s time to re-enter my sacred town

The last for sometime I think and frown

I’m enroute to a Foreign Place

Mentor is buried; Remember the grace

Influence me after Death still live on

I listen, read, play and write; I have won

 

I’m gonna do something

I’m gonna play something

I’m gonna say something

That will make people listen

My voice, people will hear

My body, people will be near

My Actions, People will imitate

My Life, People will debate

Today’s standards; out will be thrown

Someday they will be my own

Someday maybe soon

Someday, I will ruin

Someday, some Way

Things will be better: I promise

Maybe I should run for President

For I can Lie

 

 

 


The Ring

With this… encompass your…

Forever finger… so that… with beauty

My feelings will linger

This is my promise to you

An Artifact

My Heart is true

To Exist

Have you ever felt

You aren’t living?

That you’re just an

Existence

Only a non-existence

Taking up space and time

With nothing to do

But burden those who live?

You wish to be seen

But the way

Is far out of reach

You’re in a foreign society

A society

That is blind to you

To your mere existence

As if you were nothing

But an Apparition of Bliss

Knowing time is running out

You try to find a way out

The path is long and hard

Long and it can’t be seen

By the normal eye

It must be focused to

The Unseen

Cleansed and Freed From former sights

To see only the New

Move on from memory

To Fortune

The final frontier

Is between the ears.

Token Of Appreciation

Although this token has

No cash value

To other people

As money or wealth

Maybe it will have a value

To you as a symbol of

Happiness and Love

I myself will never know

What it meant to you

For that is what only

You can decide and know

Maybe you have decided

Before you get this from me?

Not knowing you’ve done so

What I hope you’ll think and remember

Is me and one of my many ways of

Showing, proving,

My Love for you is real

 

I hope you keep this

As thing to remember me by

In the years to come,

As a keepsake

But that may not be able to be done

In all that will come;

How can one person

Keep track of something so small?

I guess that is when you will

Really know what it meant to you

If you still find it

Years from this date

You will really know that I was

Showing, proving my Love to you is real

And that it meant something

To you that

My Love for you is real

 


Triviality

Life and it’s activities

Are Oh, so Trivial

Yet so fundamental to

Life itself

We do things to create a memory

In doing so we create life itself

By Sex

WE call the meaning of Life

Love

Love is really the embryo

To eternal happiness

Such thing must exist

We try to find a partner

That appeals to our needs

We wish to impress them

With ourselves

No, hoping to impress

If we do, it amounts to conception:

The beginning of Life

 

Warrior

I am a warrior

Though I wish it not so

I am a combatant

In the field of expectation

And I am flourishing

I cannot be beat.

But to Posterity I choose to yield

I yield only to you

The power continues to flow thru me

As if I’m in a battle

Though I am not

My weapon is down

I am deserting my Battle

Quitting the war

I pick up my Pen for it is

Mightier than the sword

When I Think Of You

When I think of you

Through and Through

The day and night

I cannot wait

But I have to

When I think of you

I begin to Lust

What to do?

Who to Trust?

When I think of you

I know of Love

Your warmth surrounds me

Like a glove

When I think of you

I want to feel your fire

It is you that I desire.

 

Your Eyes

When I looked into your eyes

That was when I realized

What I wanna do:

            I Wanna take you

            Take you

            Take you there

I wanna make you

            Make you

            Make you Love me

I wanna caress your cheek

Wanna Fondle your Fucking Feet

Cause of you, I’m beat

Don’t know what to do

Or where to go

I’m the senseless

Airhead, Dingbat

In your Eyes

 


Your Mission

When you’re by yourself

You don’t know what to do

When you’re by yourself

You don’t know where to go

When you’re by yourself

You don’t know who to see

When you’re by yourself

You don’t know who to be

When you’re by yourself

You walk the streets in despair

Thinking of the others wishing you there

Where they’re gathered

They await your arrival

With this in mind, You’ve gotta find

Your own means of survival

During the time of

Your Mission

 

Zenith

I’ve told you how I feel

I’ve shown you how I see

Take it for what it’s worth

Communications not a one-way street

Love is not a one-way street

Though it’s always been that way

WITH ME

I don’t know just what you feel

I don’t know just what you see

I have not left to steal

 

I am being controlled by you

The remote is in your hand

And I think it’s a Zenith

I hate the fucking brand

I’m changing the channel

 

Adages & Sayings

·        Until our paths cross permanently once again, Only then will we know our Truth.

·        Choose the lesser of two EVILS. Chose me. I am the Devil

·        When Darkness engulfs the land, I will begin the search for thy hand

·        I think of you nightly, wishing I could be holding ya tightly

·        The longer the wait, the greater the weight

·        What does the future hold for your sibling of the same birth era

·        Why don’t I go out w/ my friends? I hate them

·        I’ve heard what you said. Cause of my ears I wish you were fucking dead.

·        Life is a Journey. How do you choose to travel.

·        You may think you can fly, but you better not try

·        Live WITH me instead of trying to change me to fit your ideas

·        I lay here dead. Life was so unexpecting. One minute alive and well, the next dead and in Hell

·        I just wanna live my life until I die

·        I don’t know what I said to her then. But she swept me off of my feet and I said let’s go!

·        Come to me, or go away. Far, Far away.

·        We must now take control. Choose our own side. Life or Death, this time the world is the prize.

·        Damned if you do. Damned if you don’t. It’s a catch 22

 

Goes slow, then it’s fast

Inclimate forces slow it down

Constipation.

Sunny days, Good in a way

Fast it becomes

Diarrhea.

So fucking shitty in a way

It’s good, cleans you out

Gets you there quick

OH FUCK! I gotta go now

·        Never apologize for anything. There is no excuse for you.